Usually, the new year comes with a feeling of a new beginning; a fresh start.
This year, that just doesn't seem to be the feeling I have.
To be honest, I'm so lost. I've been lost for a really long time.
School is basically screwing me over again.
My weight loss goals have basically plateaued, again (Although, this one I am determined to change.)
My best friend left town again.
I've been doing so well as far as being optimistic, and looking to the future with a smile on my face. I've been so much more confident in myself than ever before, but I can't help but feel like I have just hit a brick wall. Head on, full force, just stuck in a rut.
It was not my intention to sound whiny, or pessimistic, or anything of that nature. In fact, I am feeling quite the opposite. I'm feeling hopeful, grateful, excited to see what the year has to offer, but I just wish I could see at least a teeny, tiny glimpse of what lies ahead for me.
I could really use a good friend. A shoulder to lean on. Someone to help me keep my chin up and a smile on my face.
I have a few friends who I consider good friends. We hang out a lot, have a few drinks, sing our hearts out, but I really just want someone I can talk to. Someone I can trust with everything.
I just really need a friend right now.
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